Sometimes I wonder if I would have been better off just finding another full-time job, and keeping the whole ‘write-a-book’ thing in my back pocket. It would have been less stressful, I think. And that’s saying a lot, considering that I’m a freaking social worker.
There are days when I just don’t enjoy the process. Although to be honest, a lot of my process part is avoiding the writing part.
Why do I make this so hard on myself? I’m such a weirdo.
No More Mountains 
February 24, 2011 at 6:17 pm
You are NOT a twit.
You are, however, a perfectionist (at least I suspect that you are) and as such, you stand in your own way when your inner nag whispers into your deepest inner ear that you might not pull this off perfectly.
I’m struggling with the same thing. Should I just get a “for now job that I hate” to make ends meet? Or do I hold out for something I really, really want?
What are the best times for you to write? When have you found the process the most enjoyable so far? Maybe it’s that you need structure. Maybe it’s that you need LESS structure.
All I know is, you can do this and you can do this really, really well.
Every time I’m afraid it means I’m growing. It’s time to be afraid and do it anyway.
Think Gestalt…your writing will be more than the sum of it’s parts when it all comes together.
Now go make yourself a mocha or go for a walk in the sun and be good to yourself. You deserve it.
February 24, 2011 at 6:39 pm
I think you need to get your creative juices flowing again. Write a few blog posts a week that have nothing to do with writing the book. do a few posts like you used to. pick a random topic and write about it. create a story out of nothing. You’re so good at keeping people at the edge of their seats wondering how the story of the pen sitting on the desk will turn out! it’s talent.
if you write for the love of it again it will inspire you to continue with the book.
February 24, 2011 at 9:37 pm
Genius. Thank you for giving me permission to do that. I needed it. xo